Submitted By: Penny
What is the most powerful symbol of romance?
Having someone in your heart and knowing no matter what you will forever remember them.
What would be your dream romantic gesture?
Someone simply doing a gesture just for me, particulary when you have children and it's "all about them (in a good way)", for someone to do something just for me is simply beautiful.
Share a love story.
Mine is a different love story............. it's sad, beautiful, awkward for someone people, but one I'm so proud of. I had the most beautiful baby girl in Sept '15, Heidi, she was sadly stillborn. But oh my was she the most beautiful thing I have EVER seen and I fell in love with her instantly. She melted my heart and I can't think of her without crying (as I am now). I have very very little to tangibly hold and "touch" her, she is only a beautiful memory now but FOREVER in my heart that physically broke. Yes love can hurt. I want to remember her and by this I have honestly been looking for a right hand ring that is my "Heidi Ring", one that I can rub and play with as I constantly think of her. We got a precious 23 hours with her because of a cuddle cot that kept her cold so she didn't decompose more, during the night I dreamt that she cried out for me and said "Mummy", it was the hardest thing of my life as I really thought she was there awake- I'm bawling my eyes writing this, tears streaming down my face. Love is not just a "current" thing it is also for those that we miss terribly. While most of us have experienced grief, stillborn grief has an extra element in that the parents never get to know the baby and make memories with a warm baby, I mourn a life that was never lived. I love her undoubtly the most i have ever loved anything in my life. I wear pink most days because this is "her" colour. Love comes in so many different forms, and I thought I'd share my story even though it's not the typical love story. Heidi owns my heart and I miss her every second of my life.